Honesty is such a difficult thing when you feel like you are suppose to have a smile on all the time due to being a person others look to for joy and inspiration. To just be real can be a difficult thing. I have learned that being open is by far the best thing for my own soul, but it is still difficult. Standards seemed to be placed on people who are attempting to lead or encourage others to experience the joy of following the Lord. By this I mean, it seems they are expected